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He said he wanted to be alone for a while. He said that he just feels bored with himself. He never do such thing before... well, at least, not in a year. There's nothing I can do to make him feel better. All I could do for him is just to hung up the phone and leave him alone. He asked me not to call him because when he's better, he'll call me.

I know I shouldn't feel like this. I know that I should give him a trust but my heart don't think the same with my brain. I want to trust him but all I can think about that he's gonna call her. And after that they'll talk all night. I feel so conceited... hurt... and really don't know what to do.

He said that I shouldn't think anything crazy or whatever plot about him and that girl. But I can't. Their picture is playing on my head. Help... I hate being jealous. I hate thinking that it's her he wants tonight instead of me. Still, couldn't do anything but crying and I hate crying... and I hate her...